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i dun even know where to begin ...

lately things have been going and not going my way.. i flip flop between not caring any less and getting frustrated but amused at the same time.

and sometimes time just passes without so much as a once over from me, it gets disturbing how nonchalant i am.

... and i never know when to stop

i dun even know where to begin ...

boy, can i spew words like crazy.. i just got tired of the long winded journal that doesn't make sense anymore. heya to the rest of DA, if you still visit me, drop me a line. i hardly lurk anymore, just clean my devwatch every once in a while.

... and i never know when to stop

i dun even know where to begin ...

i just realized that i haven't had a journal entry since Christmas or anything of significance since 2003. Frankly, I haven't had the time. I remember a comment once about someone telling me that my writing is going to waste. Well, I have written, on and off... but there's nothing really that I felt I should be sharing to the rest of the world, (yeah, all of like 2 or 3 of you).

The only reason I am finding the time to write this journal is: well, there's two reasons. One is that I'm sick of the last one and Two is that I'm sick. Period. Yeah, feeling under the weather again. That's like twice since the new year. If last year was my year of car/cop problems, maybe this year is my year of health problems *knock on some cheap two bit piece of wood that is my furniture*

woah, this sounds like a rant. i'm starting to think that i can become a whiner as mentioned. i still think i'm not that bad but since we are down this road now, let me just tell you or warn you of my pet peeve now - double standards. And me being the selfish type, this is how i'm gonna clarify: don't ever let me catch you giving slack to another person for essentially the same thing they do and then giving me flack if i do something of the like or even at a lesser extent. if you don't catch yourself, one of these days, i am gonna give you hell.

if you want me to be the bearer of flack to the other person, just say the word and i'll gladly give it and if you're gonna play favourites, make me the favourite... do i detect an 'or else'?

... and i never know when to stop

i dun even know where to begin ...

i've always wanted to post something with the cool journals here at DA... maybe i'll attach some pictures later on.. thanks to stan for making this a reality

... and i never know when to stop